Wednesday, September 16, 2015

The End is near, or not…


                                                       
Picture of Julie Rowe posted in her blog
 
Yeah, these are the last news in the Mormon world. Some lady by the name of Julie Rowe claims she has had some type of vision/revelation about the end of the world. According to Julie, who is a devoted Mormon and very active in her church, the end is near. Julie has her own website called “Prepare Now”, in which she talks about her “death near experience”, and she also sells two books she authored called: “A Greater Tomorrow” and “The Time Is Now.” I haven’t read her books but I read some of the reviews in Amazon and more than 300 people have given very positive feedback about them already.

If you want to check her website click here: http://julieroweprepare.com/

Julie is so popular she has participated in several firesides in LDS chapels and already has many followers. It looks like some of her followers are selling their houses and cashing their retirement accounts to buy gold and prepare for the end of the world. For some reason, her followers maintain the end is going to happen this month September 2015. They expect some earthquake, wars and other calamities like these, so people are buying emergency kits, tents, food, etc. You name it. This is serious stuff. If you want to listen to a very informative panel discussing the validity of Julie’s claims, click here: http://mormonstories.org/julie-rowe-preppers/

Anyway, I have read so many stories about the end of the world that now it is hard for me to believe anything anymore. Sometimes I wish the end is here already, and sometimes I am scared to death. We will have to wait until the end of September to see if anything happens at all. You never know, she might be right. In the meantime, all we can do is wait.

Mormon Massive Resignation 2015


 
                                                                     Picture posted in The Salt Lake Tribune.
There was a Mormon massive resignation scheduled for July 25th 2015 in Salt Lake City. Unfortunately, I did not make it. Here is the link about the 2015 mormon massive resignation: http://fox13now.com/2015/07/25/nearly-100-submit-resignation-letters-to-lds-church/ Another link for Mormon massive resignation in 2015: http://www.sltrib.com/home/2768326-155/latter-day-saints-gather-outside-mormon-headquarters

While reading about the massive resignation, I came across the information of Bishop Earl Erskine, ex Mormon that interviews other ex-mormons. If you like to read about him and watch the interviews, here is the link: http://www.exmormonfiles.com/

I think something interesting to note is that this was not the first massive resignation. There have been other massive resignations before. Here is the link for Facebook pages that promoted a massive resignation back in 2014: https://www.facebook.com/events/776471005720057/ and https://www.facebook.com/events/278142279028000

The purpose of the resignation in 2014 was to protest the excommunication of Kate Kelly and John Dehlin. I have to say I was tempted to resign that year as well. I do not agree with excommunication unless is for real serious reasons like domestic violence, rape, murder, pedophile, fraud, harrassment, bullying, physical abuse, etc. It’s not fair to excommunicate people just for differences in opinions or interpretations of doctrine and religion. Anyway, if you want to read information about the massive resignation in 2014, click here: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/07/24/mormon-mass-resignation_n_5618311.html and here is the link to read about the resignation of 2012:
 
http://www.reuters.com/article/2012/07/01/us-usa-utah-mormons-idUSBRE86000N20120701

One of the reasons people gave for abandoning the Mormon Church was the political activism against gays/lesbians. I personally, am disgusted with the church actions against gays and lesbians. I did not know about it until I started to research and what I found out was not pretty. I just wish everyone would have access to this information and then, they could decide if they want to stay in this church.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

If Staying in LDS Church doesn’t spark joy, even if the church is true, it is ok to leave.


When I read the article called “If Staying in LDS Church doesn’t spark joy, its ok to leave” in the Salt Lake Tribune, it reminded me of my own situation. It reminded me of what I have been going through to reach the point where I find my self today. The article was written by Kate Kelly, the founder of Ordain Women. Even thought she was excommunicated for her involvement with Ordain Women, she still recommended people to stay in the church to make things better. At the time, I was making the decision to leave the church. At the time, I already had tried to stay in the church to make things better and discovered this was not an option, at least not for me. I realized I was the minority and things were not going to change just because I stayed in church.

Now, after being excommunicated for a while, Kelly has changed her stance. Kelly has learned that staying in church is not the only honorable option. I am happy that she finally realized this. Because it is exhausting to stay and keep pushing for a change that never comes. I was tired, tired and sick of it. I told myself I had to stay in the church because I believe the church is true. I told myself if I didn’t stay in the church I was not going to be saved. I was worried and I was afraid to leave the church. I had terrible anxiety attacks. I cried and cried for months, alone. I felt unworthy for wanting to leave. At the same time I felt I could not stay knowing first hand that people in my ward were mistreated and racially profiled by my ward leadership. I felt that by staying, I was tolerating and contributing to members being abused by church leaders.

What was I going to do? Stay in a church where church leaders/bullies got away with bullying and abuse, just because the church is true? Stand up for what I believe and leave the church and lose my eternal salvation? Attend church along with the bullies and try to change the church from inside? Was change a real possibility? Endure anxiety and depression and attend church with bullies? I asked myself many questions like this.

Finally, with the help of God and common sense, I found answers to my questions. I realized that even if the church is true, I don’t have to put up with church leaders who are bullies. I realized that just because the church is true, I don’t have to stay in church and endure the anxiety. I realized that my physical and emotional health should be my priority and not church attendance. I realized that church leaders/bullies lose all the authority the moment they abuse their authority, and therefore; I am not under any obligation to support them or follow them anymore. I realized that people like this have no power or authority over me or my personal salvation. I realized even though there are good people in church, this is not a good reason to stay. (I can find good people in any other church as well) I realized that going to church was not a happy experience for me anymore. I wanted to stay in church because of my beliefs, not because I was afraid to lose my salvation.

I gave myself permission to follow my heart. I gave myself permission to stop attending church without feeling guilty. I decided I was not going to be ashamed about my decision. I decided I was not going to be a victim anymore and that I was going to take charge of my life. I decided I was not going to let any church leader to have control over my thoughts and actions. I decided I was going to speak up my mind with no fear of excommunication. It was a long process but in the end it was worth it, because now I am free. Now, I am happier. This is how I discovered the grass is always greener on the other side.

If you want to read The Salt Lake Tribune article by Kate Kelly, click here: http://www.sltrib.com/opinion/2738628-155/kate-kelly-if-staying-in-lds

 

Monday, July 27, 2015

Kristy Money and Church Discipline

Today I heard the 3 hour podcast in which John Dehlin interviews Kristy Money in his site “Mormon Stories Podcast.” If you want to listen to this podcast, click on this link: http://mormonstories.org/kristy-money/
I learned this young woman is remarkable, intelligent, educated and has a great heart. Why would a person like her face church discipline? It just breaks my heart. It is depressing to hear about the recent excommunications within the LDS church. Unfortunately, this “excommunication trend’ is becoming more and more, common protocol.
According to Kristy, the main reason she is facing discipline is because she is part of the women’s movement Ordain Women. My opinion is that it is a very stupid reason to excommunicate people because they want to hold the priesthood. Women in this church are taught we are supposed to become “a priestess unto our husbands.” This is not new doctrine. Those that have attended the temple know that women participate in the blessings of the Priesthood. We bless, anoint and seal blessings. We bless and serve each other within the temple walls. Why are church leaders over reacting? No one is changing the doctrine. Women had the priesthood before in the times of Joseph Smith and they were able to use this priesthood not only in the temple but also in public places. If the Prophet Joseph Smith was ok with women having the priesthood, then why would leaders today be so upset about it? It just doesn’t make any sense.
 The only thing I can think of is that church leaders are afraid women are going to outsmart them if they get the priesthood. But even if women were wrong to request the priesthood, it is not a good reason to excommunicate them or to face church discipline. A good reason to face church discipline should be rape, fraud, bullying, domestic violence, etc. There are thousands other reasons that would justify to face church discipline, wanting the priesthood is not one of them.
She also dared to say LDS leaders can make mistakes. Here we go again! Why LDS leaders are so sensitive to comments like this? Everyone makes mistakes. It is part of life. Saying that leaders make mistakes is not an attack on the leadership. It’s just reality. When are LDS leaders going to man up and take it like it is? It’s not the end of the world. Silencing Kristy Money is not going to change the reality that leaders are men and that they make mistakes.  Maybe this problem is more about being a real man and not being afraid to say that you messed up, than about member’s behavior. If we women have the courage to admit when we make mistakes, so should the leaders be able to accept these things without excommunicating or retaliating against those that put the information on their face.
Anyway, I am sick of this nonsense by LDS leaders. I have lost confidence and trust in them. I don’t think they have the inspiration, common sense, or leadership skills to lead the church. I don’t expect them to ever apologize or to admit they have made mistakes in the past, and that they still make mistakes now in the present. I can see Elder Oaks turning into a pile of salt before he apologizes about anything. Kristy may not understand it yet, but in the end, it is better to be alone than to belong to a church that doesn’t reflect your beliefs anymore.
 
Picture of kristy Money and her family posted by Mormon Stories Podcast.



Thursday, June 18, 2015

Who is on the Lords Side and The Mormon Apostasy


Elder Turley and Elder Oaks gave a talk called “Who’s on the Lord’s side”, about apostasy in Boise, Idaho.

 You can listen to the message on the LDS church official website at: https://www.lds.org/music/library/hymns/whos-on-the-lords-side?lang=eng

According to these LDS leaders the purpose of this message was: 1) to answer questions of the faithful and 2) master disabling doubts (they pretty much talked about the difference between questions and doubts).

The message lasted approximately 1 ½ hours. The first part of the message Elder Turley talked about the book of Mormon and Joseph Smith. The last 40 minutes it was Elder Oaks the one in charge and his main topic was apostasy in the last days. According to Elder Oaks, to determine if a person is an apostate, you just have to ask the 2 following questions:
1)  How do you feel about Joseph Smith and the book of Mormon?
2)      How do you feel about present prophetic leadership?

I was surprised elder Oaks used the word feel instead of believe to formulate these questions. I thought Mormons are supposed to “believe”, without any doubt, that the book of Mormon is true and that all prophets past and present are Gods representatives here on earth, including all LDS leadership. Sometimes we can have a “feeling” something is not right, but we cannot be sure of it because of lack of knowledge. Therefore, “feeling” is not the same as “believe.” When you believe something you are sure of it and have no doubt. When you “feel” something there is still doubt. Maybe he meant we should “believe” these things instead of just “having feelings” about these things.

It is possible that more and more people in the church are experiencing these “feelings”/doubts that something is wrong with the church and now leaders have decided to condone “these feelings”/doubts as a sign of apostasy. Elder Oaks proceeded to affirm that “if those feelings are negative then you are on the road to apostasy.” This statement gives apostasy a different definition than the rest of religions. Most religions define apostasy as “abandoning one faith, beliefs (not feelings which is more subjective) and practices. This apostasy has nothing to do with religious leaders (since many religious leaders in history have abused children and committed other crimes). Therefore, it makes no sense to require loyalty to leaders that are imperfect, human and sometimes even evil.

The Mormon apostasy taught by our leaders is that if we have negative feelings about Joseph Smith/current leaders, then you are an apostate. Going by this rule, many active and faithful members who don’t feel good about Joseph Smith because of polygamy, are now considered apostates by these standards. The good news is that as long as they keep these feelings hidden, they will not be excommunicated from the church. Yeah, what a relief. But how long can people keep feelings inside, bottled up until they explode? Is this approach healthy for our mental health? I wonder what a psychologist would say about this. One thing I know for sure is oppressed feelings are not healthy. One of the worst feelings you can have is not being able to tell the truth or express what you feel and believe.

Click to read article called: Are your secrets making you sick? http://www.ksl.com/index.php?sid=35021051&nid=1010&title=are-your-secrets-keeping-you-sick&s_cid=queue-7

Elder Oaks also mentioned that “members of the church that say the Spirit told them LDS leaders are wrong in any way, they are apostates.” I say, what about abuse? Are we supposed to be silent when we see leaders abusing their position of leadership? It is not correct to speak in general terms about this subject. The message being sent here is that we cannot question leaders at all, in any way. The message is that LDS leaders don’t need our feedback even if what we are telling is true. Elder Oaks would be wise and humble to consider his words and make sure he explains if there are any exemptions to this position.

Elder Oaks also said that one of the manifestations of apostasy is that “the Spirit of darkness persuades false prophets to say LDS leaders are wrong in some way or in error, and that they are the ones to correct them.”

I have to agree with Elder Oaks that if someone says they are sent by God to correct leaders or anyone else for the matter, we are not in the obligation to believe them and it sounds kind of fishy. When people disagree with leaders for the sole purpose of taking their authority away from them, most likely they are being influenced by an evil spirit greedy for power. But further explanation is necessary to make sure members don’t generalize this theory and start treating everyone that disagrees with the leadership like they are possessed by darkness. Because not all who disagree with leaders want their power and authority. Some of us who disagree with leaders is because we sincerely look to know the truth of all things. Some of us look for further light and knowledge. Some of us believe the truth will set us free. That’s all. We don’t even care about having positions of leadership in the church or power over people. I have to add that you don’t need to be a prophet to correct someone that is wrong, be a leaders or a regular member. We are here on earth to help/correct each other, always with love.

Would you have the kindness of correcting these statements Elder Oaks? Would you be so kind to make it clear that not everyone that disagrees with church leaders are inspired by a Spirit of darkness? We hope so, because with messages like this one, you break the hearts of many that are inactive and many that are faithful but remain silent.

Next, Elder Oaks explains the difference between questions and doubts. He says “questions lead to revelation, but doubts lead to disobedience and darkness.” Why Elder Oaks? Why this persistence in demonizing people for having doubts? Why do you make things so complicated and confusing? Are you following the old strategy of “if you cannot explain them the truth then confuse them?

Elder Oaks, you know very well that not all doubts end in disobedience. Some members still have doubts about some gospel principles but obey them anyway. In the temple we are taught Adam offered sacrifices without knowing the reason, but he wanted to be obedient. Many members follow the example of Adam and keep the commandments in spite of sincere doubts. Why the generalization? Do you do this on purpose or because of ignorance? Do you do this to place the responsibility of doubts on the doubters, instead of acknowledging that leaders are responsible to teach true doctrine to clarify these doubts? I myself paid tithing for over 20 years waiting for the windows of heaven to open and I obeyed this principle for a long, long, long time, even though I had doubts.

And didn’t you know that every person who has doubts asks questions? Don’t you know that first comes the doubt and then comes the question? And if the question is sincere, then how is that possible that the doubt that originated that “sincere question” came from a Spirit of darkness? Didn’t Joseph Smith have doubts about which church to join and then revelation came with the answer? Doesn’t the example of Joseph Smith show us that revelation comes from having doubts first and asking questions second? It is not true that doubts only brings disobedience and darkness. When someone doesn’t have doubts, then he/she doesn’t have any questions. Without doubts there could be no questions. It is as simple as that. The gospel is beautiful because it is simple. Why then all this mayhem and time explaining these so called differences between doubts and questions, making doubts look like they are evil, when in fact, thanks to doubts we can ask good questions and receive knowledge? In the end, the purpose of this speech was to answer the questions of the faithful, as you stated in the beginning, but all you did was to talk about what questions and doubts are, instead of answering any questions at all. Maybe this is one of the reasons people complain that leaders are not answering questions.

And finally, Elder Oaks said “it is not true that the LDS church focuses too much on following the leaders instead of following God.” But in fact, the whole message was about Joseph Smith, the book of Mormon, if you say the leaders are wrong you are an apostate and if you follow the LDS leaders you are following Christ because LDS leaders are servants of God. Jesus Christ was barely mentioned on this speech at the end, and only to assure members that LDS leaders are servants of Christ.

It is very unfortunate that many of us experience that church focuses more on following the leaders instead of following Christ. If it was true that the LDS church focuses more on following Christ, then LDS leaders would not have any problem when their behavior is questioned, because if we follow Christ, we have to question to make sure the leaders we are following are in truth servants of Christ and not wolves in sheep clothing. In order for us to follow Christ, we need to be careful to not put our trust in the arm of the flesh like the scriptures teach us.

 Any good leader and true servant of Christ would be happy to be evaluated and receive feedback by the members of their church, and to be found worthy of their support, friendship, respect and admiration. Because in doing so, leaders show their willingness to be an example of Christ, being humble to the feedback of others, being meek to serve better those they love. Nothing was mentioned in this speech about making sure we support only good leaders that serve Christ. There have been problems with LDS leaders that abuse and bully others, and engage in other types of abuse and “unbecoming behavior of a church leader.” These leaders are not following Christ or his gospel. We should not be taught that all LDS leaders serve Christ because it is not true. This is the message people are getting because of omission, because when our leaders don’t talk about something like this, people get the wrong idea. It is dangerous to follow leaders that are not true followers of Christ. Elder Oaks pointed out that “leaders don’t claim to be perfect”, but these same leaders that know they are not perfect, still require the type of obedience that doesn’t question, the type of obedience that should be given only to a perfect God, not to imperfect leaders; even if they serve Christ.  If it is true LDS leaders accept they are not perfect, then why do they insist on us following them, without questioning, like if they were perfect? Their words say they are not perfect, but their actions require that we follow them like if they were infallible, perfect, like God. Is this not taking attention away from following God? When actions and words don’t match, it is very confusing. No one has the right to require unquestionable obedience, only God.

Overall, the problem of apostasy in the church in the last days, according to our leaders, seems to be the sole responsibility of members. We are the ones that should have only sincere questions. We are the ones that should not have doubts. We are the ones that should follow them. We are the ones that should have positive feelings about leaders. We are the only ones that can be possessed by the Spirit of darkness (because leaders are immune to the attacks of evil spirits?)We are the ones to do the work, to repent, to obey, to follow, etc… What are the LDS leaders responsible for in all this apostasy problem? Are they not accountable to follow Christ or to be good leaders? Why are their messages always about members not doing what is right?

It is obvious that this problem of apostasy is a problem that affects us all, active and inactive Mormons. And we are all responsible for it, including leaders. Because any church or organization needs good leaders, and leaders need the members as well. Because we need each other. If we cannot understand this, there is apostasy, division in the church, in our neighborhoods and in our families. This apostasy problem is not going to be fixed unless we all do our part. We the members cannot do this alone. LDS leaders have to do their part and take action, speeches are nice but are not actions. But any changes have to come from inspired leaders, without inspired leaders we will have more apostasy and more people leaving the church. Experience has taught us that being called to a position of leadership doesn’t give any person automatic inspiration. In the same way “wearing priestly robes doesn’t make a man into a servant of Christ.” But the first step is always the hardest, to admit we are imperfect, means to admit even the prophet can err, and this is something LDS leaders are never going to admit. In the end we all will harvest what we planted, including LDS leaders.

 

 

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Automatic Tithing


The Mormon Church is working on setting up a new method of payment on line. Soon all Mormons will be able to pay tithing over the Internet. The church also made these news available in their official website “Church Approves Electronic Method to Submit Tithes and Other Charitable Donations.”   http://www.mormonnewsroom.org/article/first-presidency-approves-online-tithing-donations

Below you can see a “screen shot’ of the “Mormon Newsroom” site:

 

The Department of Finances of the Mormon Church declared that this new method of payment will simplify the donation process for church members and will reduce the work load of local leaders. The LDS Living magazine (church owned), also published the news: “Church Rolling Out New Online Tithing Payment System in 2015”.

 LDS Living states that in order to use this system, we should enter our bank account numbers and that this information will be saved for future transactions.  You can also use this system to pay fast offerings and to donate to the missionary fund. Here is the link: http://ldsliving.com/story/78780-church-rolling-out-new-online-tithing-payment-system-in-2015

While many members are happy about this change, some of us don’t think it is right the church has access to so much personal information like: birthdates, home addresses, e-mails, bank accounts, etc…

When my bank sent me a letter to let me know I could pay my bills on line I was very happy since this is the type of service I expect from a financial institution like a bank, but I was not expecting the same type of service from a religious institution. Instead of the Mormon Church having easier access to my money, I would have preferred that I could have access to the leaders in Salt Lake when there is a need to report abuse/bullying within the church and local leaders ignore our complaints/feedback.

In my opinion it is more important to solve church abuse/bullying than to improve tithing payments. Of course, this decision is not up to the members but to the leaders in Salt Lake in the church offices. If Mormon leaders really care about the welfare of those that are abused within the church, (sexual abuse, domestic violence, verbal and mental abuse, fraud, etc…) they could put a team together to investigate these issues that makes sure abusers are disciplined harshly/ are released from their callings,  and victims are protected. What about you dear reader? What do you prefer, to pay tithing on line or with envelope? Would you like to have access to your Mormon leaders in Salt Lake when there are serious church problems instead of the option of paying tithing on line? Something to think about…

 

Friday, May 8, 2015

The Story about the Fence and Church Bullying


First, I want to start by saying I wanted to use my real name and the names of all the people involved, but I realized I could expose myself to a possible lawsuit from the LDS church.  Why? Because the LDS Church takes care of their leadership’s image and reputation even if they are bullies. The LDS Church has money, power and lawyers and I don’t have money or lawyers, so here I am, with a story to tell but because of fear, I cannot disclose any names until I move far away from Utah. I feel pathetic because I am afraid of my church. Yes, because I am still a member. What kind of person belongs to a church they fear? And what kind of church causes fear in their members? Fear of excommunication? Fear of losing my job? Fear of losing friends over church? Fear of being bullied by LDS leaders again? Fear of having my reputation damaged? Yes.
This is a short version of my story:
Back in October 19th 2012, Bob, the Elders Quorum President in our ward, waited for my husband to arrive from work in the street. When my husband arrived home from work, Bob approached him in the street and started yelling at him. Bob was irate and rude. It was clear Bob came looking for a fight and that he was aggressive. Rose, his wife, observed the situation from their car that was parked in the middle of the road. Bob got in the car with her and they left. We were in shock that a priesthood leader in our ward was so aggressive towards us, especially since the man did not know us. We realized someone had given Bob false information about us. We were even more upset when we realized that the only people that had this information were the Relief Society President (Susan) and her husband, because the information was about an HOA incident, and Susan and her husband are in charge of the management company that works with the HOA in our ward. One of those incidents involved a broken FENCE. Only the maintenance company owners, Susan and her husband, knew about this fence, since they were the ones that fixed it, one year earlier.
One month after we were bullied in the street by Bob, we had a meeting at the bishop’s house with Bob, Susan and their spouses to clarify these rumors and false accusations. Susan and Bob did not want to talk about what happened at all. In fact, Susan did all in her power to change the subject a few times, which made things worse. Bob became aggressive again ad yelled at us again. We wanted to know the truth and verify what we already knew but it was not possible because Bob would not answer our questions. The bishop left the room because according to him: ‘We were all so contentious’. I went looking for him but he would not come back in the room. In the end, the bishop left his house. I suppose he did this because he was afraid I would look for him again. Yes, the bishop was afraid to be in the same room with all the people he chose himself to be leaders in the ward, so one more time, we were yelled at not only by Bob but by Susan’s husband and Bob’s wife as well, and our bishop did not move a finger to put order. In that moment we realized that we were unprotected in this ward and that we could not trust our local leaders. We realized these people could do and say whatever they wanted with no consequences. These Mormon/ bullies/leaders were untouchable. What can you do when you are bullied by your church leaders and your bishop thinks bullying is solved just by talking to the bully? You file a police report. That’s what we did. Otherwise we would have been unprotected in church and in our own home. If you are ever bullied by Mormon leaders, don’t expect the church to take your side or believe you. Don’t expect this church to do what is right. Just file a police report and protect yourself and your family because no one else will do it for you. If the bully was your bishop or your stake president, don’t feel sorry for them. It is more important that you are safe than your leader gets offended. I have learned this lesson very well and I hope others can learn from my experience and be safe.

But the story doesn’t end here. We were so naïve to think that if the local leaders were bullies, the stake leaders would be different, so we contacted the stake president in our area about this issue. Instead of releasing the bullies or putting order, the stake president questioned everything we said. He did not know us either but he was already taking sides with these bullies. He minimized everything we said like the bullying did not happen or like he did not believed us. He asked us to forget and forgive. The stake president said he will get in touch with us after talking with these bullies, but 6 months went by and he never contacted us again. At this point, tired of waiting, I contacted the area leader. In my mind I thought the area leaders would be different than the local and stake leaders. I expected the area leader to meet with us and release the bullies. But the area leader would not answer my calls, e-mails or letters. The area leader just sent me back to the stake leader who was siding with the bullies. I learned that following church policy is more important than helping people for LDS leaders. Unless you are popular like John Dehlin.
After months trying to fix things with the area leader, I decided to send a letter to the first presidency in Salt Lake City. I sent several letters that were answered by their secretary and finally, after 2 years of trying to communicate with all these leaders, we got a letter from the first presidency lawyer. The letter said they were so sorry we were ‘troubled waters’, and that we were so upset about ‘the broken fence.’
We were so upset about this stupid letter. Were the leaders careless or stupid? We were upset about being bullied in the street by church leadership, not about a broken fence. Nothing was mentioned in the letter about bullying. They talked about a broken fence that was fixed 1 year before Bob came to our home to bully us. It was obvious they talked to Bob and he made up this lame excuse. It was obvious the leaders believed Bob and did not make any attempt to contact us to verify Bob was telling the truth. Why? Because Bob was a leader and we were not. It was obvious the stake president transmitted this information to the area leaders, including the first presidency and they all chose to believe the stake president and Bob. At this point, we lost all trust and confidence in all the church leadership. We realized it was a waste of time to expect any justice or inspiration from any of these men. The only thing we could expect from them was letters from their lawyers with wrong information on it.
Finally, we sent pictures of the “fence” showing it was fixed and also sent e-mails showing the request that was sent to repair the fence with the dates to prove the fence had nothing to do with or complaint. However, the leadership in salt lake would not answer any of our questions about this “convenient miscommunication.’ It was not until I had a second interview with the stake president, almost three years later, that the stake president acknowledged the information about the fence was wrong. But he did this only after we sent the evidence by mail to the LDS Church headquarters in Salt Lake. He had no other option. However, no one never wanted to tell us who gave the LDS Church lawyer this information. The stake president said he didn’t know either. It was obvious that the LDS church and their leaders withheld this information from us on purpose to protect the image of these bullies/leaders.
After this terrible experience with LDS Church leaders, I realized that local leaders in this area were a reflection of the leaders in Salt Lake City and of church policies. They were not an isolated problem like I thought in the beginning. I started questioning the LDS Church and their leaders. I started learning things about the church that I didn’t know and I was able to see that the way the LDS church handles problems like this one or any type of conflict, is pretty much the same. It’s all about church policies that protect the church and the leaders at the expense of regular members. I will explain this in future comments. The way the LDS church handles conflict can be seen in all the church dealings. It is more than church policies. It is part of LDS Church culture of intimidation, bullying and concealing/twisting information to make the church and bad leaders look good. Now, every day I learn little by little the truth about my church. So far, what I have learned have influenced my decision to not go to church anymore. I will share with everyone my discoveries and we’ll see if I go back to church or I leave forever.


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